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Made an interesting point today. Some people can’t love. It made me think and I realized it was a thought that never crossed my mind. Have you ever had a relationship end and of course your sad and so is the other person. Then a month later the other person is in a new relationship and your left sitting there going, “uh… well you sure fall out of love quick…” and then you get into it deeper thinking he never loved you. Or she. Whatever you prefer. Certainly they may have at one time, or thought they did. One easy way to tell, is if they with hold info from you. Now i’m not saying little details like he/she stopped wetting the bed at 12 instead of 6. I’m saying they don’t seem to connect with you emotionally. You trust them completely all day everyday and you could sit in a ditch with them and you’d be the happiest camper on earth. They, on the other hand, get angry or bored that you never “know what you want to do.” I had that problem a lot. Not that i didn’t want to do anything, I just didn’t care what i did with that person, i was happy sitting on the couch making fun of people on TV with him. He, on the other hand, was looking forward to playing baseball… if ya catch my drift. Don’t worry… he struck out ;)

Who make it hard to exist “peacefully.” Lucky for me, I ran into 2 of mine today. I should explain a bit more. He’s my ex and his new girlfriend. I got in a one way fight with her a few days ago (she did the fighting, I found it pointless to argue so I didn’t) and boy did they give me the stare. I’m not talking about the look on your face you can’t help making when you see someone you don’t like, I’m saying they could have shot lasers out of their eyes if they wanted too. Well of course they couldn’t but killing me or injuring me was obviously their thoughts. Sheesh. I wish it were possible to erase a person from your memory. Just the memories that happened with that person. Nothing else. Boy would my life be easier! I think all of our lives would be. heh. Or… maybe a beating up the other person would be good… if i knew how to fight… >.< hah :) All in all, im in a good mood. :D

Is an amazing thing. It’s hard to define exactly what music is. It’s definition changes between people, just like some people like Mushroomhead and others like that Bieber fellow. It seems that many people forget the point of music. It’s not about the image of the person or the age group of all the listeners. A musicians image can be as subtle as wearing a smear of eyeliner like the lead singer of Green Day is known for having, to the over exaggerated costumes that Lady Gaga wears. People fail to realize that even the lead singer of Tokio Hotel doesn’t spend his days at home in his stage costumes and professionally done make-up. People judge on those images and even if they secretly like a song or more from that artist, they refuse to let their own hearts choose there music. Silly, I know. I can admit I have a song from Justin Bieber on my ipod, and no it’s not “baby” or whatever that song is called. 

Your music is all your own. Even if everyone thinks your favorite band is well… odd or what ever other reason they can think of; I want people to remember that it doesn’t matter what people think of your choice in music, if it makes you happy and you honest to God like the music and NOT just because the band is “Hot” and you want to marry them…. then your good. If those are your only reasons, maybe it’s time to re-think your ipod set list, and stop yelling at people when they comment something you don’t agree with on a Justin Bieber or Jonas Brothers video…. That would be nice too… 

I take my dogs with me and even though they can be a hassle, I enjoy my walks. We walk all over the neighborhood and I have my ipod on full blast and dance and sing around as we stop for Cielos to pee on yet ANOTHER bush. Most people who go for walks or runs tell you that they like the feeling of running or walking for long distances and that its invigorating to them. Well not me, I’m not sure what it is about walking around the neighborhood but it makes me feel pretty. Weird I know, I’m all sweaty and huffin’ and puffin’ while two dogs are fighting on weather to walk and sniff every bush or run for the Himalayans but I feel pretty. Even today when I went out without any make up, my hair a mess, and my legs looking like a cactus. I don’t know if it’s the music, the fresh air, or being able to be away from home for an hour or so that makes me feel better, either way, I look forward to my evening walks all day long. 

That cut-backs should NOT occur in 2 places. 

1. -Schools. 

Obviously their is much debate over this already. With the way things are going, classes are too full and prices are going up. If these cut-backs continue, who is going to be able to afford school? At that matter, who is going to run our country? Certainly not the people who have the right ideas and stamina because the cut-backs stopped them from returning to school. 

1. -Hospitals. 

 I recently spent a lot of time in hospitals and saw just what the cut-backs were doing to them. In the ICU the nurses station need 2 nurses per station. (One station per patient room) this makes for a safer environment in case the patient falters and needs help. Currently the station-nurse ratio is 1 per 2 stations. If the patient in room 2 goes into distress at the same time as patient 1, then it becomes a battle to save both and find help. With such a small amount of nurses in the actual area, it’s near impossible to find a nurse when you need one. If it were your mom or you dad in there, you would want help ASAP right? 

So. Those are parts of my ideas. Certainly we could all live with a few less attorney- at law commercials. What about all those game shows that give out ridiculous amounts of money? Couldn’t we use all that money for the benefit of the whole country and spare our hospitals and schools any more distress. Then again…. try telling that to TV personnel and to our lovely Senators. 

Must have been a man. No woman would have made a “time of the month” product with the slogan “Have a happy period, Always.” Even “Have a happy period, sometimes” would have been more expectable. If it were me, my slogan would be, “Take some midol and wear this in your undies and put a smile on until somebody starts to bother you…” course…. that is a bit long for TV, but if you package it in those snazy colors like the new U by Kotex brand then your sure to attract a large sum of customers. Or package it with a hersheys chocolate bar…. dunno what it is about ehm… “mother nature” that makes us crave chocolate and every sweet imaginable. Must be something, since I just came home from Smith’s with a bag full of cookies and cheese bread….

So this is my first post and I have a feeling I probably won’t be that good at having a blog, but I’ll try my best. I enjoy writing a lot, and i’m sure that most of my posts will be nothing but fluff because the urge to write comes before an inspiration. I also write poems, I may post a few up here too. I have 2 dogs and I’m sure a few posts will be about them. I read a lot of books and I have a feeling that “reviews” and sudden “inspirations” will lead to a bunch of odd posts. I hope whoever reads them enjoy’s them, and if you don’t, well that’s fine with me too. I’ll always be here though. Whenever you need me.

— <3 BB