March 2012
15 posts
Im being admitted to the hospital for 5 days…. Weee….. :(
February 2012
73 posts
“Sometimes you imagine that everything could have been different for you, that if...”
– Unknown (via dahye93
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I'm starting to think that taking piano was a bad...
Don’t get me wrong, i LOVE piano… I meant taking it at school as a class was a bad idea. the teacher spends most of his time trying to get me to play correctly. In fact today we were learning “kumbayah” and he spent thirty minutes just counting until i could play it right. Or, right-er. My hands are far too delayed. I’m counting in my head but my fingers just…...
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Books to read during surgery recovery:
I will add to this list as more books come to my attention :P
Mocking Jay (Hunger games book 3)
The Help
The Lost Hero (Heroes of Olympus: Book 1)
Red Pyramid (Kane Chronicles: Book 1)
Witches and Wizards (Book 1)
Grimms Fairytales
Cinder
City of Bones
Clockwork Angel
Glass
Room
Wicked (Life and times of the wicked witch of the west Book: 1)
Alice in wonderland’s Through the...
I have to write an essay on the movie, "Titanic."
Trust me, i know this movie by heart. But i don’t want to do that right now lol. I need to summarize the movie first… and i gotta figure out what details i’m going to take out first…. *sigh*
Futurama is on.
Bored.
Didn’t sleep much at all last night. I kept having weird dreams. Between dreaming of surgery and some weird hangman inspired game…. yeah i dunno. Last time i have chef boyardee before bed…
I can’t remember what the hangman word was. I know it started with a ‘C’ but nothing beyond that. It was the same word each time. As soon as i “won” or...
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mini crisis.
I was talking to a friend about surgery. Mostly joking. He was telling me that he was going to buy me the bestest spongebob doll he could find and everytime i was scared in the hospital, i needed to give it a hug. (He’s called beefybob now :P). Then after dinner, while walking up the stairs to my room, i got the strongest urge to cry. I walked to the bathroom, closed the door, and proceeded...
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really dont want to go to piano tomorrow. I haven’t practiced… pretty much at all… i mean were not doing anything new in class since our mid-term is the 7th. He gave us an “attendance” quiz peice, but he said if we wanted to focus more on the songs due for the mid-term that’s fine too. I do want to go because i need to figure out where my hands need to START for...
Facebook people are unfair.
*Friend from UNLV that’s in a Fraternity*
(summary of status/event posting) “Hey guys, i’m raising money for hearing loss and life threatening illnesses with my fraternity! Did community service today, went to church, and now i’m collecting money! I feel good :)” 38 Likes.
Really?
I post up the information for the MG walk and i got 1 like. From my best friend. Who...
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I find it a bit...
Cocky?
to tattoo yourself… on yourself?
Right?
Okay, so i have this friend thats in a band. One of their album covers is of them in like Rag doll form. (Kinda like the Korn album…. )
He has now mentioned that he wants to tatoo his rag doll onto his arm….
He wants to tattoo himself…
on himself…
…….
You all see what’s wrong with this…...
JUST SHOOT ME NOW!
****** RELIGIOUS RANT HERE! JUST SAYING…****
A rather large post is taking up spot on my facebook. It’s a picture of Obama and his reasoning as to why he wont pass a law to ban abortion. He says he can’t simply pass a law based on his own religious beliefs, because there are those who have no religious beliefs that he needs to consider. (Good president here.)
For some reason...
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78 Days
I stare in the mirror. This figure before me. I trace down it’s chest, Soft and smooth, Free of atrocity.
The image shifts. A dark red line bubbles to the surface, Distorting, Cracking, The tissue in its way.
Already in pain, A deafening snap sounds. It’s chest distorts and heaves, Splitting apart before Slamming back together.
My hand touches the mirror, Watching the shape in front...
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Creative writing workshop and first day of MG...
It went splendidly. :) I’ll delete my old post and put up the revised edition of my poem. I’m only making minor changes, turns out everyone really liked the poem i wrote. The only issues was an argument about semi-colons in response to poetry, and whether or not i should introduce medical jargon into my poem. I was even told that i had the “favorite” poem of the workshop :D...
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Dropped math today
And the finished my homework for tomorrow before 12. :) But now that i’ve given my dogs a bath… oof. Damn MG.
I’ll be going on a regime of medications now. A high dose of prednisone, a pill to help me sleep, a pill to help me wake up, and pill to keep my stress level low so i don’t get any extra complications before surgery. AND once a month i have to go in for IVIG...
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I feel like writing a poetry book of all the poems...
Then do another one about recovery.
A twofer! lol
Just a thought….
theicebergh asked: and what exactly do you see there that i did?
I'm going to drop math.
That one has the most homework due per week, so i figured that would be a major load off of my shoulders. And now i’ll be done with school tue/thurs at 2:15 rather than 3:45. i already told my mom. She did that whole *raised eyebrows, smacking lips* thing. Clearly disappointed but at the same time agreed upon. Ah well. I’ll still be at 12 credits, so it’s not like i wont be a...
What a good way to wake up...
My mom woke me up this morning simultaneously calling me a slob, throwing clean laundry on me, and then telling me to get up and put it all away. Apparently some time while i was asleep she snuck into my room and did my laundry. Now she’s complaining that she spent all day doing it since 7 a.m. and that I am never allowed to have a full bucket of laundry again. Or else. -_-
So now that my...
Spent the day as a noodle,
sitting on the floor of my room, fixing my former eyebrow into 2 much less manly looking ones. then i did my make up. Got up to do my hair. nearly fell over. now i’m back on tumblr. but prettier than before.
Seriously, what is it about having 2 eyebrows instead of 1 that makes you feel so different? I mean… what if no one every shaved or shaped their eyebrows before ever. would we...
ugh. i feel terrible today. Stupid MG. I slept close to 12 hours and i still feel absolutely exhausted and like i’ve just ran a marathon.
Isn’t this nice?
"her teeth freak me out. its like shes wearing a...
hahahaha oh youtube comments, how you make me giggle.
Has anyone ever been “friend dumped”?
So here’s the scoop. A mutual friend and i recently started talking more often than once in a blue moon. Then it went to texting and then he proceeded with that whole sexting. I made it clear that i wasn’t attracted to him in that manner and i didn’t want anything to escalate to that type of relationship. He was okay with it and...
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I don't know what to do.
I feel like picking classes this semester was a bad idea. I wish they would have diagnosed me in December. That way i would have known to skip this semester. I just can’t focus. Far too many things are going on. Between tests and assignments and doctors appointments and thinking about the surgery and trying medicines and trips to the hospital…. it’s just far too much…. My...
So let's set the world on fire. We can burn...
I GOT AN A ON MY PIANO QUIZ!
NO WAY! :D I’m a happy camper this morning :)
School Tomorrow
Looking forward to seeing what my creative writing teacher said about my poem. Hopefully he wasn’t like, “what is this shit?” Because then i would be sad :( And chemistry exam tomorrow! I don’t feel too nervous about it. More than half of it is multiple choice so i have some chance there. And he gives us partial credit for our written answers. I’m expecting a C. And...
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I keep seeing all these "i hate my body" posts....
… and I can’t help thinking how enraged by them I have become. Everyone has their reasons, every one has their problems, i am not bashing any one person, nor am i saying you should or shouldn’t harm yourselves. Everyone is free to think for themselves. This is but another one of my pointless rants. But how can you be so naive? How can you hate your body? Your body is perfect....
Spent sunday afternoon in the hospital.
I took my noodle syndrome meds and suddenly i didn’t feel so hot. I was shaky, my palms were slick with sweat, and my throat was tightening up. So of course my mom and i rushed to the hospital. I thought it was pretty funny because my mom ran up to the desk, shouted, “she’s having an allergic reaction to her meds!” and the triage nurse just looked at her, grabbed the clip...
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My Body Betrays Me.
My heart aches, My mind has run out of excuses. My body is limp. Why must my body betray me, When I find something I love?
Yes, I’ll be a doctor. I’ll fix the wounded, I’ll heal the sick, And help those who’ve Run out of options.
No you won’t. This anxiety will run your ragged. Your poor legs will tire of standing and your hands will forever be Unsteady.
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This sucks.
Went to a baby shower today and proceeded to spill my soda everywhere… twice. Then drop my phone noisely onto my plate, then spill soda into someone’s “prize.” >.< Damn noodle syndrome. I don’t even feel that bad. My hands just refuse to work today. I’m almost afraid of going to piano. I haven’t practiced much at all since my hands decided not to...
Anonymous asked: tell your mama to be strong. :) and to have ice cream and junk food ready for you after surgery :P
Anonymous asked: its okay to be scared. its okay to be afraid. thats normal. no one wants to go through surgery. but it helps if the doctors talk to you before the surgery. ask every little question that pops into your head. knowing exactly what theyre gonna do while in surgery might help you become familiar with what will happen and hopefully youll realize that everything will be okay. everything will be just...
I keep thinking about needing surgery.
I’m nervous, of course. That’s only natural. But then i’m absolutely terrified. Not about anything going on, but about being alone in the hospital. My mom is going to fight to stay with me those 5 days, but everytime i think of going under….
I remember when i had my endoscopy done. It’s not a surgery, but your under anesthesia anyway. And i remember lying on the...
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Support the MG Walk for a World Without Myasthenia... →
Please help me raise money for Myasthenia Gravis research! Check out my group page (if your in the las vegas area, we are accepting new members!), or find one in your city! This would me the world to me! Thanks so much!
It's official.
The week of May 12 i will be undergoing surgery. I’ll be having my thymus removed via breaking my chest open and prying it out. >.< Won’t this be fun.
Libraryland: "so you want to be a writer?" by... →
libraryland:
if it doesn’t come bursting out of you in spite of everything, don’t do it. unless it comes unasked out of your heart and your mind and your mouth and your gut, don’t do it. if you have to sit for hours staring at your computer screen or hunched over your typewriter searching for words, don’t do…
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